Filed under: Blogroll, Enlightenment, Happiness, Ideas, Innocence, Life, Love, Moments, Poetry, Realness, Thoughts, realizations | Tags: Life, Love, words, Happiness, blogs, true love, jon, jonathan d beale, cerulean, love words
My words have never served for much.
They’re not artistic.
They don’t even sound as such.
They don’t save lives,
and they don’t pay for my independence.
Mainly they’re just a bunch of letters put together, periods, and commas put together for my entertainment.
… Until the day when I found the source of all art,
the source that filled me up with all these magnificent new feelings and experiences,
ones I’ve never been able to experience due to my limited-pass in life.
It greeted me with extremely simple yet astonishing words that opened new doors to wondrous worlds full of exciting adventures.
It smiled a smile that blinded my eyes,
filling me up with a light that radiated from its whole being,
and an emotion stronger than life itself.
The light didn’t hurt.
The light didn’t kill.
The light healed.
And it was better than the rich sight our eyes provided daily.
“Oh! With this light as my source of life, let me be blind forever!” I happily announced.
Yet that was when it gifted my sight back, showing me the vast, cerulean-colored sea.
Oh! What a sight!
Better than all the painted masterpieces sold.
Better than the poetic narratives that most preached about.
And seconds later,
without noticing,
I was swimming in the bluest, most staggering, sea.
And I was filled with such peace and bliss,
that my worries began to softly melt away,
not caring about the fact that I wasn’t gifted with the skill of swimming…
Not caring if I would drown and die in this ravishing ocean,
where my body would either float on or drown in for all eternity.
I didn’t care!
… For I was feeling a connection with it that was just too unbearably remarkable.
Something that I couldn’t explain,
for no words would be enough…
No words could do it justice.
And even if there were the one word that would describe it perfectly,
no one would comprehend the gravity of this fondness,
for this feeling has yet to be felt by the rest of human kind.
But then the water started to drain away.
And I was left in a place filled with nothingness,
with a presence that not only embraced my soul,
but that now embraced my figure.
What felt like its arms pulled me in gently,
and as they did,
I could make out a brawny figure.
And as I caught my breath,
I sucked in the most delightful smell emanating from its form.
I could feel its arms resting on the small of my back as I listened to the symphony of his breaths.
I then let my head rest on this being’s chest,
and as I did,
a man was revealed out of thin air,
hugging me tightly,
his face buried in my hair.
He was white as milk,
but with a light touch of caramel.
His eyes were cerulean.
His hair was dirty blonde.
His figure was muscular, powerful, and grand!
And so breathtaking.
He was perfect…
Like a Greek God.
Everything about him had an air of mystery and a sense of complexity.
But in her head,
all she could perceive was the fact that he was just an angel gifted from above.
Her newfound inspiration.
A true miracle.
Her miracle!
One she would keep forever even if keeping him forever meant writing about him to the world daily.
She would do it…
All for him…
For she not only just discovered the beauty and inspiration she’d never had.
She had discovered something bigger…
BETTER!
… Love.
Filed under: Happiness, Innocence, Life, Love, Poetry, Realness, Thoughts, weirdness | Tags: beale, blog, cerulean, cerulean eyes, esmeralda, forever, jon, jonathan d beale, Love, manhood, once upon a day, once upon a time, passion, true love, words
Once upon a day, you came along…
And your brawny body shrieked of manhood,
while your fond soul squealed of passion.
And your cerulean-colored eyes quietly told a story of a man lost between the paths of love and virtue, trying to find his other half miles and miles away from him.
But as the distance grew thin, your stereotypical yet ironic ways began to fade away.
And then there was just you.
And then you knocked on my lifeless door,
ever so lightly,
and I opened up the portal to my heart.
And you took the freedom to sit at the edge of my bed,
while I sat exactly three feet away on that wooden chair,
the one where I spent hours contemplating the thought of you,
and you sighed.
And I asked, “Are you here?”
Because I felt you so far away.
But you answered, “Forever.”
And then, with a smile in my eyes, I knew….
Because as you spoke the one word, you stood up from my bed.
And as you cautiously walked towards me,
I felt my heart battling with my insides,
just trying to exit my body…
Just trying to unite with yours.
And as our lips touched,
and your strong hands caressed the sides of my face,
I realized nothing had ever felt this wondrous,
because nothing had ever managed to fill me up with such euphoria as this breath-taking experience, literally.
But then we both realized this experience was getting to me,
as I was slowly fainting inside your arms.
Yet you held me up gently just in time,
whispering into my neck with a worrisome voice, “You promised forever.”
And as I felt your breath against my neck,
and your words reach my ears,
I whispered back with a faded, yet genuine, smile, “And forever it’ll be.”
And it was forever,
because the man your eyes preached about was you.
And the other half miles and miles away was me.
And now we are here.
And it is forever…
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Our words are the letters combined that keep us alive,
because in them inhabit the feelings we never say,
but always wish to.
Yet there are days when the feelings we emerge in seem to have slipped away from our hearts.
We look into the mirror,
and see no reflection.
Now we are soulless…
And our thoughts never come out our lips;
because we’ve lost the ability to come up with the words that express the way we feel,
much less speak them,
because now we don’t feel, at all.
And our hearts don’t beat the way they used to.
Now it’s a monotonous thump every ten seconds.
The sound is pale and ever ending.
The sound is dead.
Our minds are like the night now,
dark and empty.
You can listen to the crickets chirp away their endless symphonies,
ones that enclose no definition,
while you try to decipher the many messages they all emit without sounds.
There are times when steamy rivers flow down our cheeks,
and our throats feel like knots,
choking up the little life we perceive out of our being.
But once our lakes dry up,
and there’s no more water to spill,
we are left once again in square one,
without our souls or words to keep us company.
Filed under: Blogroll, Innocence, Life, Love, Moments, Poetry, Purity, Thoughts, weirdness | Tags: blog, esmeralda, her and you, i love you, it's all okay, j, Life, Love, poems, Poetry, the tree of love, Thoughts, weirdness, words, you are always wearing a black hat
You are always stating inspiring things,
with your long curly hair,
and your ocean-deep eyes,
and a pen in one pocket.
I’m not quite sure what this means,
but it’s something I’ve noticed.
I know you’re scared of it all,
but you shouldn’t be afraid of the wrong words.
Sometimes they amaze,
like the day you wrote your names on that tree,
because you were sure you would last.
But now it’s the situations that are going all wrong,
and the world is just going too fast,
and you’re not able to catch up.
You keep on stumbling upon your own two feet,
the same way you happened to stumble across her heart.
You stole hers,
and she stole yours,
and fact is it wasn’t that simple.
It just wasn’t like the movies at all.
But the tree hasn’t gone to seed,
and the writing is still there,
and the bombs are still falling,
and the chemicals are still boiling.
There’s still hope.
So hold on to the wrong words,
because they may be the right ones,
the wrong-right words that sew the patches of your hearts back together and into place.
So maybe the things you wear on your body do have meanings,
just not for me.
It’s for her to know,
and for the world to find out.
Filed under: Blogroll, Innocence, Life, Love, Poetry, Thoughts, realizations | Tags: blog, esmeralda, foolish girl, foolishness, Life, Love, poems, Poetry, she just wasn't goo enough for you, she thought she could win you, such a foolish girl she was, unrequited love, words
Such a foolish girl she was,
thinking she could have you;
thinking she could breathe the same glorious air as you,
or reach out and feel your true heart beat endlessly inches away from her,
or even caress the surface of your body.
And still,
after the many incidents,
she kept on being foolish.
And her foolishness led her to think she could win your heart,
and wear it up her sleeve as a sign of triumph,
one everybody could see.
But she was wrong,
as it was expected to believe,
because even as he stood only fingertips away,
he stood too far off.
His heart was unreachable,
placed far beyond the stars and galaxy,
way farther than where humans are able to wonder.
And now foolish girl sits alone,
as she was destined to be.
Because once upon a time she dreamed of catching him as he fell.
But it was clearly all a dream.
Such a foolish girl she was…